i know i havn't been on here in a while and thank everyone who even looks up this dumb blog. i feel like this blog is a journal that i let everbody read. i just hope that oneday i will be able to write something that changes someones' life. that helps them to think about if they have made a difference. if they will leave behind something besides items, and leave behind instead great memories, feelings of love and admiration, and great deeds of service to their fellow men and women.
to my family who looks up the title "the third sprout" on their internet screen. . . . . . . . i love you. and i give thanks to God for putting me in a family who loves me so much. i could have turned out a very different person in another family, but because of you i am who i am today.
to my adopted family, or friends as the world calls 'em. You have made the biggest impact on my life. when starting junior high i had no friends and was too scared to make any. my friend frome elementry school towed me around and made friends for me. i got braver and tried out for the school play where i met my friend before birth. there was an immediate connection with one kayla gonzales(sorry if i spelt it wrong, you know im bad at names). she saves me everyday of this dreary existance. she gives me a smile, a thought, and will tell flat out if im wrong or being a big butthead. i love you kayla. then there is another whom i met about a year ago. we have a bit of an age distance......she is 18. though she may not act like it. haha, kelsie kendall, my darling sister and friend (and it will always be in that order), you give me hope for a new day. you are the one that knows when something is wrong, even if you are not even near me. i get a text asking "are you okay?" well you know what im not. and that's okay. you are always ready with a joke or just there in general. i dont know what i'ld do without you. love you so much kels.
im just gonna lay my card on the table right now, don't get offended. many of you try to be kind and ask how im doing. thanks but no thanks. im not okay. and i dont know when and if i will be. stop asking!!! the situation?not okay. my life?not okay. everything has shattered so now you know. if im smilling, it's a lie. because im not happy anymore.
