(sigh) Christmas is almost here. well, I'm not too thrilled about it. i know everybody thinks that holidays are supposed to all joyful and all, but seriously, i am so dreading it. i mean, are you freaking kidding me?! couldn't we have done this whole shpeall after Christmas dang it?!!! i feel like everything is being so dragged out. i feel like i am being stretched in all different directions. what am i supposed to do? how am i supposed to feel? i dont even how to react to anything anymore. i feel like the only real thing in life is the way i think. my thoughts are the only real thing. everything else is like dream. nothing is real.
well, i really expect everyone reading this to heed my words. everyone, anyone is judgmental during christmas. i dont care who you are, but seriously you are practically reading my diary so ............ anyway, i feel like sometimes people who comment are being kinda judgemental even if you are not trying to be. sorry, maybe im just sensative but its how i feel.
okay, im done now.
At some risk, I offer an opinion: all of these feelings are still that part of love that is so hard to bare. Who knows how long it will take, maybe a lifetime? But embrace that love and let it guide.
ReplyDeleteI remember my first Christmas without my dad. It wasn't the best one.
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